Today

Life changes so quickly. In the last week everything has been turned upside down. I have not panicked or lost it. I have been calm and serene. I will find an answer. I will make this work. I will soon have nightmares...but I have had these nightmares before. I wish that I hadn't, but I have. I know that the adrenaline will wake me but it will go away. I did the right thing and it worked out. I only wish I had someone to share all of this with. Just to get it out into the open where it isn't smoldering inside of me. But he too is gone. It is probably for the best but only time will tell and it was evil time that made it so. I am fine. I'll be ok.