When Life Gives Rain...Play in the Puddles.

Another Rainy day, and the amazing sound of the drops on my windows.

Listening to the Rainy day soundtrack on Spotify while I work.

It’s extremely soothing, and another plus is that it drowns out the negativity that echoes within the walls of my work space.

I don’t have time for that.

I’m really trying to be conscious of my surroundings and what I bring into my “space”.

I’m also trying to be present wherever I am.

It seems to be working. 

Simple and Perfect

There is a warmth over me today that feels like a blanket of happiness.

I just feel good. Quiet, but good. I’m trying to slow down, take things in, observe.

There is a strength that I didn’t know I could achieve.  My world is at peace.

Calm, kind and good.

It’s raining outside today, the sound of the drops pitter pattering on my window this morning was lovely.

I love the sun on my face, but there is definitely a love for the rain that I can’t deny.

I’m looking forward to Spring. All the luscious green, and the smell of flowers.

The sound of chirping birds in the morning and the sun shining through the windows in my bedroom.

May Love and Peace wash over you today.

Fast Car (cover) - Ryan Montbleau & Tall Heights

His voice touches my soul in a way I can't explain.

Breathe it all in.

I have moments of clarity. Moments when I can see what is important, what is good, what is right.

Most of the time, I like many others live my life in a haze of to do’s and responsibility.  I am on auto pilot, moving through my day without putting thought into what I’m doing or what is going on around me.

I don’t want to live life like that. I only have one. I want it to be amazing. I want to make connections, and live moments and enjoy all that this world has to give.

I don’t want it all to pass me by.

The Beginning of the Forgiveness Challenge and so much more

Today is the start of a new begininning.

I am cleaning out the cob webs and making life bearable again.

I have made a promise to myself to stick to 30 days of taking care of me and my life

I have started the Desmond Tutu 30 days forgiveness challenge.

I'm looking forward to learning how to let go.

How to forgive so that I can heal.

I have gone back to paleo.

I feel better when I'm clean eating.

I will meditate for 20 minutes a day...no excuses.

I will do some sort of Yoga three times a week.

I will clean the shit out of my house and organize like crazy.

These are the promises I have made to myself so that I can be a better me.

Welcome to my journey.

Today

Life changes so quickly. In the last week everything has been turned upside down. I have not panicked or lost it. I have been calm and serene. I will find an answer. I will make this work. I will soon have nightmares...but I have had these nightmares before. I wish that I hadn't, but I have. I know that the adrenaline will wake me but it will go away. I did the right thing and it worked out. I only wish I had someone to share all of this with. Just to get it out into the open where it isn't smoldering inside of me. But he too is gone. It is probably for the best but only time will tell and it was evil time that made it so. I am fine. I'll be ok.