Lilacs, Love, and Loneliness...

I stopped at the park on my way to work today

and picked some lilacs.

The smell takes me back to my childhood

Playing in the Lilac "jungle" in my Grandmothers back yard

My Cousin's and I would spend hours in those bushes.

I took the lilacs to work to help relieve the stress

It gets so overwhelming sometimes.

After work, I picked up Bug and got her to her friends.

When I got home it was so quiet. 

Just me and Chloe. 

For the first time in a long time I was a bit Lonely.

I'll be fine.

I'll push through.

No time to sulk anyway.

Nothin but a G Thang

Don't Bother

Dream...

Hide your Crazy and act like a Lady...

I have a new confidence about me

That doesn't mean all is well

But it does mean I'm getting better...again.

I have to learn to let go of the things I have no control over.

Take things one step at a time.

Celebrate the small victories on the way to the big.

I'll get there...Fo Sho

Today stress relief came in the form of 

going to the park and Swinging with Bug.

It was needed and good.

I have a busy busy weekend ahead of me.

Take Bug to see her Bestie...

Work

Pick Bug up from Besite's take to her Dad's 

Help Boo get ready for her Stella Dot party.

Go to Boo's Stella Dot party

Get house Clean...do Laundry...Go Grocery shopping.

Get myself and Bug ready for next week.

Whew...it's going to be alot.

Should be good though.

Oh...

and I need to fit some cheap Therapy in there

(jogging)

Foam Fest 5k coming up

shortly.

You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don't try to forget the mistakes, but you don't dwell on it. You don't let it have any of your energy or any of your time, or any of your space ~Johnny Cash

My heart is broken. (not sure why this didn't post on the day i wrote it)

I don't even know where to start today.

FIRST

I will tell you about my mother.

She had surgery today

She is having her Jaw Reconstructed.

I know that this is all necessary 

in order for her to get better.

I know that this is all the process

that will make her 

jaw strong and without pain

But 

it still makes me sad to see her in pain.

I hate that she has to go through all of this.

I would do it for her in a second if I could.

THEN

there is the bombings in Boston.

I was at the Hospital and didn't even know 

that it had happened until I got home.

I can't explain the anxiety and saddness and anger 

I felt in that moment

The fear even.

I can't comprehend how someone could do this.

I can not wrap my head around it.

I'm sending 

all the positive energy 

I can .