It's a problem.

I cradle my fear of men inside my heart.

Ennui

I'm having a day.

The kind of day where nothing you do is right.

The kind of day where I feel like a failure. 

I just can't seem to get it together.

My heart is hurting and I don't even know where to begin to make it better.

My sadness is overwhelming.

Bring on the second guessing in my head...

We all know that 

I am a mess.

BUT

When the dust settled 

after Jason 

Moved out

I 

PROMISED

myself that 

I would settle for nothing

less than 

amazing.

That I wouldn't 

spend my life

taking care of someone

and them not do the 

same in return.

I love him to pieces...

I hope I didn't make the wrong decision.

And at the end of the day it's ALWAYS about love.

Time to get back on track. Time to pull it together and be the best me I can be. No excuses.

The Bestest...