A little Mayer Hawthorne to wind down a long day...

How to let go...when all you want to do is HOLD ON TIGHT...

This is  a tough one. This is a huge question for me. This is where it's at.

I don't know how I am going to do it. I'm not sure what it is going to take.

BUT I am going to go ahead and do it anyway.

IT'S ABOUT FUCKING TIME!!!  :)

Yeah I said it.

What has possessed me to waste so much time on someone who, in the end, clearly doesn't care?

I don't know. Hope maybe at first.  Then it was comfort. Fear of the unknown...?

Whatever it is...No more.

You were supposed to be my friend first and foremost. I guess that means something different for me than it does you...so...

I know this sounds petty. So very 13 year old girl of me but...

You have been voted off the Island. 

Take your torch and 

Vamoose

One of Mamasitas favorite sayings...

A Pep Talk from Kid President to You

Made me smile today...

BFF

In Repair

Oh Magical Snow....

Most days are easy.

Most days I can go on with my life like all is well.

Most days I have a smile on my face.

Most days I am happy.

Then there are nights like tonight.

The snow is falling outside my window.

It's so very magical.

Like being in a snow globe.

and  I want you here to enjoy it with me.

It's not that I am unhappy.

I'm loving this.

I just would love to share it with my friend.

That's all.

The End

Red hair....don't care...

HUGS!!!

Bacon...

I make bacon EVERY morning...

I put it on the same setting.

I do it the same every day...

and today...

It burned.

and the whole office stinks.

And I am totally embarrassed.

This is the hardest story...that I've ever told.

Wake Up.

As I type this, I am trying my hardest to not nod off.

I am EXHAUSTED!

I’m on my Fifth cup of coffee which has become normal for me.

The exhaustion is starting to show. I just look tired…all of the time.

I can’t focus to save my life…nor can I remember anything.

WTF

Here I am. I am trying to take care of myself. Trying to be good to me.

Trying to Love myself…and my body is failing me.

I will push through …but I’m tired.

Sunday Girl - Where Is My Mind (Official Video)

This is an amazing Cover Song...

Ben Taylor and James Taylor - You're Not Alone - Raleigh

I love  both Ben and James Taylor.
This is one of my favorite songs that Ben has put out...and when I found it with both of them...
I was super happy.

Oh Wilbur...

I'm trying to not be sad.

I'm literally telling myself I'm not aloud to be sad.

Starting tomorrow ...

When I wake up...

I will be dependent on the glands of a pig

to live.

Sigh.

Question...

Am I the bad that pushes good away?

Build them up...and build them STRONG!

 I have built my walls for a reason. Every time I think that I can let them fall down a bit…

It bites me in the ass.

So…up they go The protection that they give me is worth so much more than what I get from letting them down.

An Amazing Book...

Pretty, Pretty, Please with a Cherry on top...

Check this out.

I promise you won't regret it!

www.BoobEnvy.webs.com

So True...

She said

Even love has it's limits.
I agree.

Quote of the Day:

I will not waste my daysMaking up all kinds of waysTo worry about all the thingsThat will not happen to me

So I just let go of what I know I don't knowAnd I know I only do this byLiving in the moment~Jason Mraz

Perfect.

The Light bulb just turned on...

So... Today I'm pretty proud of my easy breezy attitude. I can be a normal well adjusted person.

Who knew?



I'm smiling a lot today...genuinely smiling which feels amazing. I think sometimes things work out as you think they should and sometimes they work out how the universe wants them to. Either way it's all good as long as you take it with a grain of salt. I'm learning to not take everything so seriously, and just laugh at myself sometimes. In the end my happiness is controlled by only one person and that is me. I choose to be happy today, because to not be happy isn't an option in my world. I have too many amazing things in my life and around me to sweat the small stuff. 

Why didn't I figure this out sooner??? 

Hugs!!

Take care,

 Dana Marie

Song of the Day:

Super fitting Today. Love it.

Quote of the Day:

When we follow our hearts, when we choose not to settle; it’s funny, isn’t it? A weight lifts, the sun shines a little brighter, and for a brief moment, we find a little peace.

Meredith Grey

I am feeling...

  Like I'm in control.

In control of myself for the first time in FOREVER!!

And DAMN it feels good. 

Song of the Day: Lisa Loeb - Fools Like Me with lyrics

Happy...

Quote of the Day

" A Girl worth Kissing is Not Easily Kissed."

I'm trying to wrap my head around this one......

Casey Abrams -Get Out Lyrics

I was at Michaels today... wondering around looking for something, and this song came on.
It made me want to dance in the aisles...I think it did the same thing for a couple of other people I passed...because they were bopping their heads to it.
So... I thought  I would share...
Clear a space....hit play...close your eyes and dance, dance dance!!!

Paramore: That's What You Get [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

Ummm....part 2

Just to follow up on the previous post...

  When I got into the exam room, I was trying to be really polite and friendly.
He then proceeded to check my eyes...but there was some sort of issue, so he wanted to check them closer.
Sigh... he put the dye in my eyes and then got all up close and personal...he was just doing his job when I said....

  You smell really good. Yep. I said that before I could even think about what I was saying.
How effing embarrassing. He turned red...but it was like a weird ice breaker because it was all laughs and jokes after that.

  Who does that? Me of course.

Ummm....

So my normal eye doctor is out sick today. He has been replaced by Dr. Hotness. This is going to be awkward and uncomfortable. Eeek.

I don't know where I went wrong, but I can write a song...

Nightmare.

 I wrote a really elaborate post...

but decided, it was too much....

Here is the edited version....

I had a dream.

It made me sad.

  

Sweet Dreams Peeps...

Quote of the Day:

When words leave off, Music Begins

Henrich Heine

Song of the Day:Quickie RMB

The first time I heard Ryan Montbleau's voice, i was hooked.

Good advice.

what does this say about me??

I just want to take a break from grocery shopping....just one glass??? Ok maybe not.

Ugh.

Good Morning!!!!

I am up and moving....barely. 

Funny what a couple of glasses of wine can do to a  girl who rarely drinks.

I drank a ton of water when I woke up...and now my body is asking me...

Where the Hell is my Coffee???

Today should be pretty fun ( I say sarcastically)

I have to clean out my closet

Go Grocery Shopping

Pay Bills

Give Chloe a Bath

and maybe just for fun...

Clean the Fridge

I may try to sneak a run in there somewhere.

So...

I'm going to jump in the shower

Grab a Lara Bar 

and 

Head out to get the grocery shopping done

I am so fascinating these days....

Quote of the Day:

Song of the Day: No Strings - Mayer Hawthorne

So if you know me at all you know I love Mayer Hawthorne. His music is exactly what I need to listen to on Friday night with a glass of wine...or 3. This is one of my favorites.

You are on my mind today.

Every time I get good news....I want to tell you first. 

But, I can't...

Obsessions update...

Ok kids...here are my latest obsessions....

  The Cup Song.

I had to learn how to do it and sing it. After countless youtube videos and 2 hours of doing it...
I now can do it.

  Ed Sheeran

    I don't know why...but I find myself wondering back into his world countless times a day.
I start to do one thing and somehow end up either stumbling across him on the net, or listening to his music.
Which I love.: P

Lip Sugar Scrub

   I'm not sure why I want soft lips so badly...It's not like I'm kissing on anyone, but I love my Fabulips lip scrub. I use it twice a day and I'm constantly making sure my lips have chapstick on them so that they don't dry out. I really want to try Lush Popcorn lip scrub....but I will have to wait for now.

and my new secret  obsession...

The Inbetweeeners.

  I can't help but watch this show. I start and it's like watching a train wreck....I can't walk away.
I'm like a 14 year old boy when I watch it...laughing at the most vulgar things. Completely ridiculous...hahaha.

William Fitzsimmons...

song of the Day: Cee Lo Green 'Bright Lights Bigger City'

    I can't help but dance when I hear this song. It is one of my favorite songs to put on my headphones

when I have to do something I don't want to.It makes everything OK!

It may be nonsense...but it is amazing!

    

    I have an imaginary friend.  Ok, so he’s not really imaginary….but we are mostly friends in cyber space. Therefore he is my imaginary friend. We rarely see each other…but always keep in touch through messenger and email.  It’s how our relationship began. A Happy Birthday email sent to him on a whim.

He is the BEST. I can talk to him about anything and never have to worry or bite my tongue.

I wish that others could see our convo’s sometimes. They can be pretty darn amusing.  I mean just think about having a conversation with someone and knowing it’s no holds barred. Anything Goes.   It can be pretty awesome. Some of the best advice I have ever received has been from him. Frankly, I sometimes feel sad for everyone else because they don’t have him as an imaginary friend. Lol.

Ok….enough about him.

           I need some decent coffee STAT. This liquid in my cup that has been called coffee is just brown water I think.

                                            Take care,

                                                                Dana

I know this is so very wrong...

But...

After I found the quote of the day it reminded me how much I love the movie Friends With Benefits.

I love love love love it. 

And my favorite line from the movie is in the opening sequence.

it is so very wrong...but i giggle every time I hear it.

Kayla: Maybe you should care a little bit less about work and a little bit more about the girl you're dating because last time I checked work doesn't reassure you that liking a finger up your ass doesn't make you gay. 

I can't help myself. hahahahahhaha.

Quote of the Day...

Song of the Day: Blackstreet - No Diggity ft. Dr. Dre, Queen Pen

How cute is this....One of my Favorite shows.

Quote of the Day...

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.  ~ Carrie Bradshaw

Song of the Day...Cher Lloyd - Love Me For Me

3...2...Swag.What?

Making a Resolution...

It sounds so scary. 

Change is ...scary.

But here it is...or they are I should say.

1. I'm going to keep on the paleo band wagon. 

My health has become super important to me.

I want to spend many many years with my Lily bug. 

Which brings me to ...

2. Finish the couch to 5k program.

I'm not staying I have to keep running...or that I even have to go run an 

official 5k. 

Just finish the program. 

3. Blog at least once a week.

I need to do this. It is my escape and my sanity.

4. Get organized....

No, really. 

I need to get my shit together. 

Out with the old...and don't bring any new in unless it is necessary.

5. Work on my relationships. 

My friendships and my relationships with my family.

I want to have bonds that can't be broken baby.

The only way to do that is to put an effort forth. 

I have definitely been slacking in that area. eek.

6. Go on Adventures.

There is a whole world out there...and I have only one life. 

I need to experience as much as I can.

I did do better this year.

Got out of my rut for sure...but I need to keep it moving.

7. Enjoy the small things.

I don't want to let anything get by me. 

Not even the small stuff. 

I don't want to take anything for granted.

8. Smile more...and MEAN it. 

I smile all the time. 

I smile more than most people...most of the time I am forcing myself to do so.

I want to smile because I feel like smiling .

9. Learn how to not put myself down so much.

I think I'm pretty cool. 

Maybe. uhhh...

I like my eyes. 

I'll start there.

Maybe I'll start writing down things that I like about me...or that I do that make me prould?

AND

10. Use my abilities for GOOD....not Evil. 

lol. 

I'll just leave that one as is. 

So there you go.

These are the things I would like to work on during the next 12 months. 

Take Care,

Dana