It's a problem.

I cradle my fear of men inside my heart.

Ennui

I'm having a day.

The kind of day where nothing you do is right.

The kind of day where I feel like a failure. 

I just can't seem to get it together.

My heart is hurting and I don't even know where to begin to make it better.

My sadness is overwhelming.

Bring on the second guessing in my head...

We all know that 

I am a mess.

BUT

When the dust settled 

after Jason 

Moved out

I 

PROMISED

myself that 

I would settle for nothing

less than 

amazing.

That I wouldn't 

spend my life

taking care of someone

and them not do the 

same in return.

I love him to pieces...

I hope I didn't make the wrong decision.

And at the end of the day it's ALWAYS about love.

Time to get back on track. Time to pull it together and be the best me I can be. No excuses.

The Bestest...

Simplicity is the key to life...

My world is complete chaos.

a 

constant battle.

So the fact  that he and I 

are 

Simple

is a fresh breath of air

that 

has been needed

for

so very very

Long.

It's so easy.

So uncomplicated.

I love you.

You love me.

Anything else can be figured out.

And in time...it will all get better.

I keep hearing...

In time 

He will get over it.

In time 

It will all get 

better.

In time

He will be 

ok 

with it.

In time.

Well Right now...

I'm over it.

I'm not on your time table.

I'm on mine.

So

as much as I care about you.

as much as I love you.

This is your issue not mine to 

deal with.

my time is mine, and I'm not waiting

for your approval any longer.