The Beginning of the Forgiveness Challenge and so much more

Today is the start of a new begininning.

I am cleaning out the cob webs and making life bearable again.

I have made a promise to myself to stick to 30 days of taking care of me and my life

I have started the Desmond Tutu 30 days forgiveness challenge.

I'm looking forward to learning how to let go.

How to forgive so that I can heal.

I have gone back to paleo.

I feel better when I'm clean eating.

I will meditate for 20 minutes a day...no excuses.

I will do some sort of Yoga three times a week.

I will clean the shit out of my house and organize like crazy.

These are the promises I have made to myself so that I can be a better me.

Welcome to my journey.

Today

Life changes so quickly. In the last week everything has been turned upside down. I have not panicked or lost it. I have been calm and serene. I will find an answer. I will make this work. I will soon have nightmares...but I have had these nightmares before. I wish that I hadn't, but I have. I know that the adrenaline will wake me but it will go away. I did the right thing and it worked out. I only wish I had someone to share all of this with. Just to get it out into the open where it isn't smoldering inside of me. But he too is gone. It is probably for the best but only time will tell and it was evil time that made it so. I am fine. I'll be ok.