And... I'm back.

I was just about to write this enlightening post about making my life lighter and accepting myself for who I am.

But

As I sit in this dark room only lit by candles and listen to this amazing french music that I randomly purchased sometime in the past...

 I just want to write how I'm feeling right now. 

Warm, happy, centered, calm and cozy. 

I'm sitting here thinking about how short life is, and how I don't want to miss out on things.

I want to at least give living in California a shot. Maybe I'll hate it. Maybe I'll love it...but I won't know if I don't try. 

Then there is the thoughts in the back of my head that hold me back. Like ...what about Lily? Will she be ok with me on the other side of the country? What about my amazing Nieces and Nephews who I love so very much. How much of them growing up will I miss? Will it be worth it? I guess I won't know until I get there huh? 

Don't get me wrong...the thought of picking up my life and moving it to the other side of the country terrifies me....but it also excites me. At first I wondered if I was running away from my life here...but I can safely say that is not it. I just want to live. I want to wake up where the ocean is, experience different people and a different way of life. 

I was listening to someone I really respect the other day, and he said...just do Something. 

This is going to be my something.

There are no Failures only Experiences.