My heart is broken. (not sure why this didn't post on the day i wrote it)

I don't even know where to start today.

FIRST

I will tell you about my mother.

She had surgery today

She is having her Jaw Reconstructed.

I know that this is all necessary 

in order for her to get better.

I know that this is all the process

that will make her 

jaw strong and without pain

But 

it still makes me sad to see her in pain.

I hate that she has to go through all of this.

I would do it for her in a second if I could.

THEN

there is the bombings in Boston.

I was at the Hospital and didn't even know 

that it had happened until I got home.

I can't explain the anxiety and saddness and anger 

I felt in that moment

The fear even.

I can't comprehend how someone could do this.

I can not wrap my head around it.

I'm sending 

all the positive energy 

I can .